This world is full of disaster. I look around at it and wonder how I am going to move forward, how I am going to keep my heart inside my chest from stopping . . . But then there is something that always drives me, always revives me, always keeps me from giving up and that is the belief that even just for a second I can look into someone’s eye’s with a peace so powerful that I watch the fear leave. There will always be wars and I will always be able to look around me and see people crying and bleeding, brave or defeated. But there is a fire in my heart for peace and I by no stretch of the imagination intend to let it die. An elder has told me she wished she would die already, the young have told me they have passion for nothing. In third world countries the people have expressed their feeling of purposelessness to me and the rich people I have worked for look confused in their short windows of rest. . . I do not believe I am any different than anyone else. We all want a life with meaning. When I should be ready to quit there is something inside of me that says “Come on Getty . . . Come on! . . .You can do it! Don’t give up! Don’t give up!”
I live for some things that are very important to me. Faith, Freedom, and Equality. It runs deeper than anything else in me and I hope that my life has an effect on people on account of Jesus heart beating in my chest. There is so much I see in the news and so much I’ve seen working in Zimbabwe over the years and then there is also what I see in the every day that I get disheartened by. I realize that what I want to put out into the world is what I personally need. I need to be reminded that when there is so much to be overwhelmed by that there is the strength of the human spirit, faith, honor and a will that can pull us through. I need something to remind me of the power of the human spirit with God. Testing the limits of your own spirit/soul’s strength is a huge responsibility and it keeps me up at night sometimes but it is also what puts this fire inside of me to work harder than I ever have at anything in my entire life.
Have you ever heard the story of the carrot the egg and coffee bean? Each of them were placed in water and then the fire was lit underneath the pot. Slowly but surely each of them started reacting on account of their surroundings becoming hotter and hotter. The carrot could not withstand the heat and became over taken by the water absorbing it all within until it was mush. The egg could not take the heat either and neither absorbing or putting anything out it hardened itself completely. Then there was the coffee bean which began to release itself into the water changing the entire body of water and yet remaining whole not having become mush or harder, it simply only gave of itself and changed it surroundings.
Have you ever come across someone who refused to fail? That is something that will fill you when you see it. That’s what we need to get through life because everyone is going to fall and if you can get back up, just you on your own decide by yourself you are going to get back up and fight another day, that’s a great message and it establishes this peace in you that people gravitate towards. Everyone wants that. They need that. The people I look up to in my life are fighters, people who try REALLY hard and don’t give up. I am learning to look at every moment of life and not see every obstacle as a problem but rather see it as challenge. I want to be at the starting line of a race the minute I open my eyes in the morning. I want to even see old age as a privilege and a challenge rather than a problem. I want to be full of life and laughter and love whether I am young or old or rich or poor. My drive and my peace come from the same place: my belief system.
I believe by being the coffee bean in life when my surroundings are as boiling pressure I can be peace and bring peace. I can bring a filling that people yearn for by one thing and one thing only: the unfailing heart of Jesus for people. There is a champion in you and it just so happens that he is the Prince of Peace. I may lay awake in bed through a lot of sleepless nights.” Blood sweat and tears” may no longer be just a saying, but do not misunderstand my passion and refusal to give up. It is not restless, nor does it fear. It all comes from a soul on fire and an inner peace born from the desire to see it through and to see it in someone else’s eyes because that is like looking into God’s eyes. Do not accredit feeling passionately for the world even to the point of sleepless nights to something being wrong with you, no. Recognize a strong spirit when you see it, root it in coffee bean kind of peace and look at the world all over again. . . Just boiling water. . .